Happie Newie Yearie 2008

It's 11:40P.M., another 20 mintues to 12A.M. and that's the end of year 2007 and the beginning of year 2008. A new year, a new resolution a new me and a new start of everything, let go of the past and moved on to a new journey of life.

Reflection of 2007

There are many things I want to give thanks to God for a blessed year of 2007. I really thanked God that I am finally home, back in Labuan. It's been 6 years since I left Labuan to study in Nilai. I can't believed that the time passed so fast and finally I have graduated and now going to start another new journey of life. I have fought the battle which for others may be just peanuts but it is indeed something which is hard for me. Well, I have finally won the battle for God, it takes me so much pain and suffering throughout the journey and nobody can understand how tough it is, only God knows best.

Leaving Nilai has been a painful time for me since I have lead the group for so many years and seeing people come and go. It's something that I find hardest for me to let go but God has been preparing me to let go of it. I learned many new things as i lead Nilai cell, it is indeed a blessings for me. I have learned to faced rejection from people everytime I invite them to come and join the gathering, but many also accepted my invitation and came. I hope God will change them from time to time.

Praise The Lord for the FCC new building that we have been praying for so long, finally we got the building and we have moved into the new building. Although I am not there to see it but i thank God that others are able to worship there.

Thanks God for the DEYC 2007 @ Sandakan. It's an awesome camp and I really learned many things from this camp although it is a youth camp but still I am able to learn new things from this camp.

My trip to Sarawak have have also been a blessing, I have been praying for my self the few days we were travelling (with my relatives). God answered my by showing me many signs, He showed me first a sign of a rainbow when we were on our way to Miri, then when we going back to Miri from Kuching He showed me another rainbow, after that He showed me a double rainbow (two rainbow). I asked God what He wants to tell me, He told me that the rainbow represent of His promise to me, He told me that as I follow His way and His will from the beginning, He will showed me His blessings (rainbow), and when I am finishing the journey, He will also showed me His blessings too, not only that, it will be a double blessings for me. I am so touched by God's special message for me. I will always remember God's promise wheneverI see a rainbow.

The Double Rainbow I Took Along The Way

Year 2008

It's a new year. I have wrote my new year 2008 resolution in my prayer journal. Started praying for it. I will need to breakthrough some of the things which has still been hanging there, of course, by not giving up to any of it. It is a new journey for me too as I am no more a student. I will be starting work soon. It will be a different kind of test I need to go to, it may be tougher than what I have been going through but I believe for sure God will always be there for me. Give praise for a new year, let go of the past and moved on.

~Happie Newie Yearie 2008~

Footprints On The Sand

It's been a long time since i write my blog. Well, not that nothing happens but many things happened. I still have another 12 more days in KL then I will be going back to Labuan for good. I will really miss this place, especially Nilai, the place where I go through all the pains and sufferings. It is then, that God pulled me up, helped me to stand up again. I was reminded of the footprints on the sand. There's only one pair, where is the other one? Then only I realized that the footprints belongs to God and He is actually carrying me all the time.

I remember I left Labuan which is my a place of my comfort and came all the way to Nilai to study. The first time I reach Nilai, one brother brought me to FCC and also to Nilai cell, was just in time for the multiplication celebration. The cell group multiplied and I was put under Nathaneal Yong, whom is my first cell leader in Nilai. It was great, we have lots of fun together and I learned a lot from him, he left for studies then Sien Cheng take over and then it was Sng Tien Leng, all the way from Subang. I learned so many things from different cell leaders with different characters and different gifts. Then next I was called to served as the cell leader of Nilai until now and it's time to let go. It's been sad to see people come and see people go and yet I am still in Nilai. For so many years, I question God why do I need to stay so long in Nilai? He never answer me but I knew there's purpose for all this. I faced many critism, discouragement along the way, but one thing for sure that I did, that is to never give up.

There's people who say things that hurt me so badly but God has been good, that He also sent people to encourage me and support me. What will I do without God? Seriously I guess I have already give up long time ago and who knows where will I be now. I thank God for those people though they hurt me, yet I learned to forgive, those who critised me, I learned to improved to be better, those who looked down on me, yet I make myself stand up again and again and not give up. It makes me become stronger and it really tested my faith on God. Sometimes, I really don't know what God wants to do, He wants me to let go, I let go, He wants me to stay, I stay, He wants me to leave, I leave, He wants me to go, I go, I choose to obey, eventhough I need to go through all the pains and hurts but God is so good that He healed it one by one and He bring me through all things. I don't know what will happen to me in the future but I trust and have faith in God that it'll be good. Even if it is not good I will still put on a smile and trust God again. Look on the brighter side of all things and praise God for all things.

Next week I am going to have my final exams and after that I will leave KL for good back to Labuan. Well, who knows if God called me back to serve here one day. I will go wherever He called me. My life as a student will end soon and will enter into a new level and a new journey of life. I know it won't be easy, it will just gets tougher as life goes on. I will just need to bear it with joy and it does make a difference. I'm starting to miss Nilai already, miss FCC, miss pastor 's preaching which all this year had helped me to grow more and more matured, the wonderful brothers and sisters in church, my dear Nilai cell members and most of all my prayer partner who has been a great encourager to me at all times. Will miss her dearly.

Give thanks, I really want to give thanks to God for all that He had done for me. Thank You Lord!

~Blessed~

天 使 Song and Lyrics

五 月 天 - 天 使

你就是我的天使
保护著我的天使
从此我再没有忧伤

你就是我的天使
给我快乐的天使
甚至我学会了飞翔

飞过人间的无常
才懂爱才是宝藏
不管世界变得怎麼样
只要有你就会是天堂

像孩子依赖著肩膀
像眼泪依赖著脸庞
你就像天使一样
给我依赖 给我力量
像诗人依赖著月亮
像海豚依赖海洋
你是天使 你是天使
你是我最初和最後的天堂

*This song is the theme song for the drama 'Making Miracles'

天 使 (Angel)

Recently, I watched a Singaporean drama entitled 'Making Miracles'. This drama talked about doctors saving lives of people. In this drama, it pop up a question, should the doctor saves the lives of those who would not appreciate their own life and not only that, they even hurt people because they want to have revenge towards those who hurt them. In this drama, there's a young man who involved in a gang fight, his right arm was being slashed off by his opponent and he was rushed into the hospital, the doctor was struggling whether to do an operation to stitch his hand back together or not due to the missing part still not found. It was said that if the missing part was not found in 6 hours time, he will definately loose his hand and became handy capped forever. The tresurer of the hospital would not agree on the operation due to it's high cost and they don't even know whether that young man are able to pay for the fees which is quite expensive. Few of the doctors insist on having the operation and finally they found the hand after 6 hours but still the doctors insist to try to stitch the hand back. The young man hand was saved, but in the end, he end up taking revenge and chopped off the person who slashed his hand in the first place. He end up with some slashes himself and went into the hospital again but still the doctors try to saved them, they are not given the choices to choose who they want to save and who they don't want to save. Every life is precious.

This story reminds me of how God gave His one and only begotten Son, Jesus Christ to die on the cross for us. Well, He can choose not to save us, He can choose to just let us die and go to hell, but He loved us too much and even to sacrifice His one and only Son, Jesus Christ to die for us, suffered for us and bear all our sins. God still forgive us no matter how much we hurt Him, how much we ignore Him, He still love us. His love is never failing. Think of Jesus whenever you think your life is miserable, Jesus Christ suffered so much so that we can have eternal life, we should love ourselves, not only that, we should also love the people around us, forgive them, they are all blessings from God.

Thank You Lord for all that You have done and thank You for all the blessed people You have blessed me with, all of you are a blessings to me.

~Blessed Angel~

Smile To Face The Day

Yesterday's message was so good, as if it really was meant for me to hear because pastor was like mentioning my name again and again. I can't helped being embarassed as everyone started to turned their attention to me, I felt hot and and blood just rushed up to my face and I was flushing. Yesterday night's message was the study about the book of Philippians. I've read through the New Testament for few times and always came across the book of Philippians but I never really read to understand it nonetheless apply it in my daily life. To come to think about it, I never know why am I being named Lydia, of all so many names in the bible and I have to be named Lydia. Well, my name does not come from my parents. I was named by my God father who was the Rector in my hometown few years back. This name is actually quite interesting though in the bible there's not much mentioning of it. Last night I came to know about the Lydia in the bible who as Pastor Khee Vun described as a successful business woman whom are very rich and etc. This is not the main focus. Back to the message of the night.

The message of the night is 'New Heart'. I learned that the book of Philippians are actually a book of warning and encouragement especially during the time when we are facing some difficult obtacles in life and everything just seems like the end of the world. 75 more days left before I'm going to start a new journey, things has been getting tough. I have 1 major assignments due in one week times and 2 more other assignments to be due 3 or 4 weeks later plus presentations and final examination. All coming my way, I remember there's once I was challenged by pastor to respond on doing well in my studies. I have responded to it and I need to keep my word and do it, all for God, the best I can for Him. People around me are becoming so stress and tension with their assignments and I looked at my ownself, why am i being so stress-free? Most of my classmates called me to ask for help and I felt so happy to help them. I guess God gave me a new heart that is to go through the difficult moments with great joy, yes I am definately going to make it through with a smile on my face, I trust that God will be able to give me wisdom to do my assignments till the very best. I guess God is using me to encourage my friends who are down with stress and fear.

Recently, I watched a Hong Kong drama called 'Pheonix Rising'. This is the chinese version of 'Prison Break', though they change the character to woman instead of man. I learned something from this drama. The main actress in this drama, smile to faced death sentence, though she is actually innocent and not guilty of wrong but, due to wanted to saved her younger sister's life of death penalty, she took her place to die for her. It also showed the horrible moments of being locked up in a small and dark dungeon where there's not sun light, food are being throw in from the top and you can only eat the food on the floor which is so dirty and cockroaches are everywhere. It reminded me of how Paul are being sent to prison and was put in the dark and small dungeon. Same as what the main actress did, he was praying with joy. In the end, the actress survived and don't need to go through the death sentence, she is also released. Paul was released too. This is an even greater joy.

I thank God for my dear prayer partner who adviced me to deal with things one at a time when I faced problems. I take her advice and dealed with all the things that come my way one by one and sure it does helped. Dealing with rejections from certain people does hurt me but I am now able to faced it with smile on my face cause I know God does all things well and as long as I trust in Him, He will bring me through no matter how hard it can be. God give me a loving heart to love them and forgive them and silently pray for them. Thanks God for the renewed heart. He is preparing me for a new journey. I can't stop praising God for His goodness. More things are coming my way, no worry, i can faced it because I have Jesus.

~Joyous~

Being Obedient

Last night, I asked a friend to watch a flash. A nice and touching korean flash. Guess what? I ended up being the one being touched agian by that flash and tears just can't stop falling. In the flash, it shows how Jesus asked a small little boy to take care of the cross and show people the way until He returns, the boy being obedient, take up the cross and tell others the way to eternity. During the whole time he was taking care of the cross, he faced many difficulties but yet he is stil holding on to the cross, there's a time he dropped down and during this time when he fall down, he thought of Jesus, the responsible of him to take care of the cross for Jesus. He stand up again and waited for Jesus and finally Jesus returns. Jesus was in tears and he told the boy that he knows how much he has gone through and He was with him the whole time.

The flash come together with songs and lyrics. The song was in korean but it was translated. This is the lyrics:

Wherever you go, be obedient.

Wherever you are, be loyal.

The Lord your God are the Lord who is now King.

I will praise the Lord alone unto eternity.

Sometimes life can't be so perfect. Well, if it would be perfect, I guess we are all in Heaven now. There are so many life obstacles that all of us need to go through. I can say, it is definately not easy but I can be sure that it is worth every single bit. I really thank God, for the worse time of my life, God is always there, though I might be rebellious sometimes, He still never leave me nor forsake me, He is taking the time to heal me and make me understands why all things happens. I would still chose to be God's servant, willing to serve Him till I see Him face to face.

~Obedience~

25 August 2007

25 August 2007

Brother Graduation Ceremony

The Four Chongs

Some Nice shots with friends

Chilis Dinner

Wow, seems like ages ago...now only i posted it. Well, this few days very very busy. I am counting my days now....87 days left...this last 87 days in Nilai...i want to give my full heart out to God. The day will come when i don't feel like leaving Nilai. This is a place where i faced so much test and trial. God has been with me the whole time. I believe those who still remains in Nilai will be bless too and so shall all the new members who just came to study. God bless them with many many blessings.

~blessed~

Nilai Faith Station Outing

Last 2 weeks, on 23rd of August 2007, Nilai Faith Station had our outing to Putrajaya. We had a great time for the International Firecracker Competition. Here are some of the pictures we had taken.

Group Picture Near The Putrajaya Bridge

Firecracker

The Bridge

Great day!

Move Forward

Today I watched a very nice animation movie titled 'Meet The Robinson'. This movie is nice and i learn somthing from this movie which is to 'move forward'. It is so touching to see the Robinson's family encouraging Louis, the small little inventor to move forward. It actually speaks to me that i need to move forward too, no matter how hard it takes. We should all move forward, then we will succeed.

~move forward~

Someone's Watching Over Me

Yesterday I watched a movie titled 'Raise Your Voice'. This movie is nice and touching and it makes me cry. One of the song in this movie really touch me. The name of the song is 'Someone's Watching Over Me' by Hillary Duff. It reminds me that someone from above is watching me all the time. Even when i fall He is watching me and helped to turn things around and there's how I can see the rainbow shinning up so bright. Thank You Lord for always watching over me.

This is the lyrics of the song:

Someone's Watching Over Me

Found myself today
Oh, I found myself and ran away.
Something pulled me back, voice of reason I forgot I had .
All I know is you're not here to say what you always used to say,
But it's written in the sky tonight.

So I won't give up, no I won't break down
Sooner then it seems life turns around
And I will be strong, even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me.

Seen that red of light and it's shining on my destiny.
Shining all the time, and I won't be afraid

To Follow everywhere it's taking me

All I know is yesterday's gone
And right now I belong to

this moment and to my dreams.

It doesn't matter what people say,
it doesn't matter how long it takes
For leaving yourself and you'll find
And it only matters how true you are

Be true to yourself and follow your heart.

~Don't Give Up~